Searching for Oxymoron

"Certainly not every letter written must start with an "I". Certainty comes after saturation of "I"´s allowed in a lifetime of writing" 

Not totally aware of the reason why the author hasn´t been able to escape the "I", he begins this writing as an excercise to find the uktimate true reason. 

The first thing taht appears in yonder, is that the author doesn´t have a clue of what to write. Seems that its goal has always been to write, record, document, see... the goal has always been to communicate, but never to learn. Wanting to teach, rejecting learning. Wanting to be seen, less to see. More captivated by the outside appeal, rather, or opposite to the inside appeal. Came this thought from a chat with a friend named Grace, mostly filled with grace. 

"When intrsopecting, is there something that relates to it? Does any of my life relate to my inside feel and touch. How far have the shadows coverd the light, blending in to it, giving it another pale. How far am I? How far have I levitated? How separate... How is the poetry that apologizes my transcurs?" 

"Put in a peace of paper one can expand. 

Window of the totality, total spectrum I can reach. 

Free and enslaved.. but free to say, denied by litearture, by vocabulary, by what the reason condemns as worthless. 

Where can sanity be find, when will we be at peace with duality, with a one dimension thinking.

And if we were to reach total relativism, would we find the shapeless dimension?"

Very few times can I reach the point of total awareness. 

It´s sudden and non-conciuous, 

radical from the point of departure; 

fanatism or consecuency of a thought

lead in a quark to unawareness, 

dressed as ilusion, 

fantasy, 

projection, 

obsession, 

unease 

and perhaps, passion. 

Little did we know!

Welcome to the machine. 

"We have been in the light house feeling the dark."

Fear and a strong pulse can occur while in life. 

Breath in the air, a start point. Start from a point of sincerity.

"When will I be the actor I´ve always wanted to be?"

Must reason be questioned to the very end? 

"Will the loss be to much?" 

 

"Whenever in doubt:

Do what guilt you not

Do what gets you present

Do what you want

Do what´s correct

"Family of four, 

two yin, two yang. 

Two older than two, 

all influenced by them all. 

All strong or fragil, 

but present. 

Aware or unaware, 

in pairs or drawn by dominance."